Herstoria: Her Way of Saying Goodbye

She has so many unwritten letters for you.

So many unspoken words.

So many muted songs.

There are so many places she wants to go with you.

But here she is

walking alone to those places.

There are so many stories she wants to read for you.

But here she is

erasing each word and tearing each page.

There are so many presents she wants to give to you.

But here she is

putting them all into a bigger box.

This is her saying goodbye to you.

Because she can’t write it in a letter,

she can’t say it in a speech,

she can’t sing it in a song.

She can only say goodbye,

In a way that will never reach you.

Shinhwa Sang Live on Chinese Idol, Just So You Know

“What a weird post title. You’re talking about Shinhwa, so of course they sang live. They always do.”

Shinhwa is known for their live performances. Okay, I know, if you’re not Shinhwa Changjo, you may not know that and you may even think that they do lip sync while performing live, but that misunderstanding can only happen because they sing so well. There are a lot of singers and idol groups who use lip-synching on live performances especially when they have to dance from the beginning to the end of the songs, but let me tell you, Shinhwa is not one of them.

Shinhwa performing This Love on Mnet's MCountdown

Of course singing live has a big risk because mistakes can happen, but Shinhwa chooses to take the risk. They made a lot of mistakes during these past 15 years, there were a lot of incidents during their live performances, but they never stopped Shinhwa from showing their professionalism on music programs, concerts etc, and we know Shinhwa learned a lot from all those incidents and now they can even laugh while talking about what happened. (Who can ever forget that moment when Hyesungie kicked a pitiful camera?)

Those live performances on all those countless stages are the reason they now become the respected sunbaenims among idol groups. That’s also why Shinhwa Changjo love watching EACH PERFORMANCE of Shinhwa, because each performance is special, fresh, precious, “now-or-never”, you can always find new little details if you watch closely. You can watch all performances for one song and feel differently for each of them. That’s why they’re addictive, that’s why they received so much love for a long, long time.

So, yes, I know why Shinhwa Changjo are mad after watching Chinese Idol. I am mad too.

Shinhwa sang (of course) live on that show. There were a lot of SHCJs during the recording, that’s why there were also a lot of fancam videos uploaded, even before the show was broadcasted. I saw the videos (mostly the ones titled ‘Eric Focus’ ^^ - I love everything ‘Eric Focus’) and really couldn’t wait to see the broadcast of the show. Not only me, I think all SHCJs were excited to see the show after seeing all those fancam videos. But all those anticipations turned bitter. They replaced Shinhwa’s live singing with CD sound and (this is what made made SHCJs mad) Shinhwa got scolded because of something they didn’t do… (lip sync). The local media even reported some defaming articles: "Korea Famous Group Shinhwa went on Chinese Idol. Got exposed of doing lip sync.. fans started "scolding" war", "Shinhwa lip sync, Group quality questioned!"

pic from weibo

Non-fans said bad things about Shinhwa after the broadcast, and SHCJs tried to prove them wrong and someone even replaced the sound from the broadcast with the sound from the fancam. But, you know, will those people watch it? Will they take time to watch the unedited fancam videos (which they are now trying to ban)? I’m not so sure. They didn’t even take time to find the truth before saying disgraceful things about Shinhwa.

*sigh*

I feel like we’re talking to ignorant people who won’t listen and can only say bad things about other people without knowing the facts.

*watching Shinhwa’s live performance on MUST to calm myself down*

This is just ridiculous and totally disrespectful. Blaming victims is not only unfair but also inhumane, you just can’t do that.

*long sigh* *watching Shinhwa’s live performance on You and I to calm myself down again*

By the way, other than This Love, Shinhwa also performed Brand New on the show but it was not broadcasted. You can watch it here. They sang live, and it was perfect. I don't know why it was broadcasted...

Sorry for this rambling post, I just somehow need to let this out.

Let's vogue dance away our anger~~~

Herstoria: What's in a Name?

Your name is a beautiful love poem with beautiful words

Your name is a beautiful song with beautiful lyrics

Your name is a beautiful painting with beautiful colors

Your name is a beautiful prayer filled with beautiful hopes

Your name is as beautiful as you

Herstoria: Moving On

For that woman, the clock stopped ticking two years ago. But she didn’t know, not until now, when the clock starts ticking again.

That woman was taking one step, two steps, three steps, but it was one step, two steps forward, and three steps backward, so she never actually moved forward.

Today, she can finally take a step, walk, and run again.

Herstoria: She and Herself

That woman thinks that it will be easier if she’s not herself. She will know what to do, what not to do, what to think, and what not to think. She never listens to herself, all those advices have been said but never been heard.

That woman tries to see herself as someone else. She takes pity on her, she pours much empathy and much more sympathy, but she can’t do anything for her.

She thinks it will be easier if she’s not herself, she will be able to force her to do what needs to be done, to say the words that need to be spoken, to let go what’s not meant to be, to hold on what’s too precious to lose. It’s herself whom she never listens.

Herstoria: Listen to the Silence

That woman finally learns that if she wants to hear the truths, she has to drown herself in silence. Lies come in the form of words, and silence speaks the truths.

That woman realizes that people are afraid of silence because they don't want to hear the truths. They hate silence so much that they have to fill their ear with words, with music, with any sound, because they think silence is the noisiest of all.

Herstoria: Love

That woman wonders about love.

What is love?

Does love really exist?

That woman used to think it really does. But now she has too many doubts. She wonders what has changed. She wonders where the doubts come from.

That woman doesn’t know who to believe. Should she believe in that girl who understands nothing about love, or in that woman who has experienced that thing, the thing that girl thought was love but the woman thought was not.